Love Letters: Jacob, Aron, Denali and Gracie

Letter to Jacob, by Corina Brown 

Dear Jacob,
This is mommy I wish so much that you were here. It is Valentine's Day today and wish more than anything that you were here. You are in my heart and will always be my little Valentine. Just remember Jacob mommy loves you and will forever.

Love you, mommy

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Letter to Aron, by Becca Jevons

My beloved boy,
I love you. It's been 17 long months since you left me and I have thought about you and longed for you every single one of the days that you have been gone, and I will continue to do so for the rest of my life.

If I had one wish, it would be for a day with you. I'd want a lifetime, but I would take a day. I wish we'd been given a day. I would hold you so close and tell you how much I love you. I would kiss you all over and take in every inch of your perfect face. We would cuddle and play and sing and laugh and it would be perfect. I wish we'd had just one day.

But we can't have time. Not even one day. And so I remember you and love you in the only way I know how. Although you are gone, I know you are near me. You are in every candle that I light, in every rainbow that I see and in every lullaby that I sing.

I love you so much. You'll never know how much I love you. The depth of love that a mother feels for her child is so much greater than every other love. You gave me that. My first child. We didn't even get a day yet you taught me so much.

Words escape me. I love you. That's all. I just really love you, and I always will.

Happy valentines day, my first true love.

Your Mama.

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Letter to Denali, by Stacey Maddox

Dear Denali,
Happy First Valentine's Day, sweetheart, and Happy Seven Week Birthday! I can't believe it's been seven weeks since you were here! Daddy and I miss you so much! This is our first holiday without you. Valentine's Day is a day to celebrate love and I wish you could be here to celebrate with us. We will be celebrating you and our love anyway! I saw a card that said "Baby Girl's First Valentine's Day" and it made me think about what you would be like if you were still here with us. I think about that a lot, actually. We love you so much and think and talk about you every day! 

I saw your mountain last week. Usually it's too cloudy to see, but that day the clouds opened up and I could see it from miles and miles away! It was incredible! It reminded me of you. You were so beautiful and strong and amazing, just like your mountain! You took everyone's breath away!
I realized that I'm very lonely now. You and I had such a good time together and you were always with me! I miss listening to music with you and I miss singing to you. I miss how you used to move around and kick me! Your cousin pointed out that you had big feet and we laughed about it because I already knew! I miss our talks. The other day I saw some pretty flowers and I started to tell you about them and I forgot that you weren't here. I miss you so much, sweet girl! My life will never be the same because of you.

I'm always looking forward to the day I will see you again!
Love,
Mommy

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Letter to Gracie, by Ashley Carlton 

My Dear Gracie,

My sweet baby girl I love you so. You are the light of my life, I want you to know. Not a day goes by that I don’t wish you were here to hear me say, “I love you sweetie girl,” please stay. You will live in my heart forever, and I know I am in yours. I feel like a part of me is missing now that you are not near. That part of my heart is in your heart and I know I made it whole. It was what you needed, yet still somehow it doesn’t seem even. For as your Mommy I long to give you lots of kisses every day. It should never have to be any other way.

Come back to Mommy one day soon, and show me that you are near. Prove to me that all my thoughts are heard loud and clear. A rainbow to show me that you are safe, the gentle light that shines just right. Maybe a thought inside my head that tells me “Mommy I am happy.” We are a family missing you as our extra piece. Daddy loves you so much and, I can see it in his eyes. Your sister misses you and that she never got to play. She only knows her little sister has gone away. One day I hope you will live on in a blessing from above. In an addition to our family that we pray will bring healing. Sometime I wonder if you get that feeling. Until then, we will always love you each day and night. For though we are apart, our love for you will forever live in our hearts.

Love with every fiber of my being,

Mommy